Oct. 18, 2005 - Nov. 1, 2011
I am in deep pain and grieving... the hardest and most painful part is waking up and realizing you are not there anymore.
It pains me to open the door, knowing I will never see you again sleeping on my slippers.
It pains me to go downstairs, knowing you will never walk beside me again.
It pains me to see your bowls, realizing I will never see your face again, that intent look you always give me when you ask for food.
Not everybody would understand how much I love you, KT.
I had always fought for you - when you were a kitten and I was diagnosed with PLEVA, some people wanted you out of my life, saying you might be the cause of my sickness- but I kept you and in time my PLEVA just went away.
As we went along our family grew bigger…
we had Sofie,
we adopted Mypee and Bantee,
but never did I feel any jealousy from you, you welcomed them and loved them.
And as we go along, problems came, may it be financial or housework that piled up, the difficulty of juggling full time employment and domestic management without any outside help—these same people continuously tell me to give you up.. they are so heartless…
You were never a burden to me, and I kept you until your last breath.
You were my companion, most especially during the time we were not working homebased and Spence and I have different working schedules.
You gave me company, comfort and warmth. Whenever I feel alone, sad and stressed out.
You were my baby; I never treated you like a ‘cat’. I treated you and loved you like our first baby.
You are a part of our journey, as Spence and I were just starting as a family. You witnessed the joy, laughter, struggles and challenges…
You are a part of our lives. You are a part of my life, a part of me--- and now you are gone… I just feel so much pain, so much pain in my heart.
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